It never took. We never stayed broken up.
Each time, we talked about all the reasons we couldn't make it work. We tried to talk through what each of us could do to change our situation for the better. But even with the truest intentions, we couldn't make it work.
Now it's really happening. We're apart. We've stayed apart and every day he's further away from me.
Yes, I'm sad. Yes, I miss him.
No, love is not all you need.
More than anything, I feel like a failure and like I've let people down. And that keeps me up at night.
Although I got divorced, I didn't do it so I could date people. In fact, I loathe dating and am very bad at it. Also, I didnt get divorced to get married again. Obviously, I'm bad at that, too. But I didn't picture myself being an old spinster either. At this rate, that's how I'm gonna end up.
I hate failing.
I hate crying over broken hearts.
I hate that I can't be perfect.
I'm not sorry I got divorced.
I'm not sorry for the time I had with BF.
But I am sorry I'm so damaged.
Yep, it's happening.