So, this is how I feel about "Forever."
It's a word with great intentions behind it - but very little comprehension of what it means.
I'm obvioisly not speaking for everyone, but I'm sure my feelings represent those of a certain percentage of people of varying ages and life experiences.
Forever is a scary word.
We've all heard the words:
"Best friends forever."
"It will be there forever."
"I'll love you forever."
When you look back now, has that always worked out as promised?
Yeah, I didn't think so.
I'm not epecially old, but my life is rich with experiences with some people of poor character. And people who've meant well but didn't understand what forever was - so how can I be mad at them for not knowing what I didn't know?
Ya see, when you're young, "Forever" is a very academic word. Space goes on "Forever," mommy will love you "Forever," and you don't think you'll ever see it or hear it or feel it. Because it's too big and far away.
But as life moves ever closer to "Forever" with the passing months, years and decades, "Forever" becomes heavier and realer.
After friendships and a marriage have failed to last, "Forever" almost seems like a farse to me.
I know first hand that it's not real. Every single thing, whether it's animal, mineral or etherial, will end. Some just last longer than others.
At this point in my life, I'm happy being happy with 'right now.'
Forgive me for not using the word and not believeing that I will have frends forever, or find a love that will last forever. Why SHOULD I?