Do yourself a favor and never, ever, brag openly about how great you are in bed to someone you're about to take to that bed.
Becuase when things don't work out like you hoped, you'll only look like a jackass.
I had a dream about him 2 nights ago.
Although I know that it was just a dream, it felt real - urgent. He needed my help.
It was the first time I'd thought about him in a while. Why did I have to remember THAT dream?
I met him a girl.
I leave him a woman.
Not becuase I want to, but becuase I need to.
For me, it really helps for people to call to my attention things that I do that I am obviously not aware of.
Like, when someone suggests that I may approach certain situations the way I do becuase I want to avoid conflict or don't want to be hurt or to get attention.
Of course I'll deny it all - "No I Don't!"
But then, I'll mull it over in my brain for days, even weeks. And the next time I find myself in said situation, I'll pay attention to what I'm doing, what I'm saying and even what got me there in the first place and sure enough, I'm usually doing exactly what I was sure I wasn't going to.
I'm suggesting that if you pay attention to what people say, then to yourself, you realize you may not have known yourself as well as you thought. AND to change a subconscious behavior, all you usually need is to be aware you're even doing it.
I need to take a trip. I want to take a trip. I will take a trip.
But I have nowhere I want to go and no one to go with me.
That's a very sad feeling.
Last night I had an exchange with someone I care about. I care about him enough to set a few ground rules so we can stay friends. This particular exchange caught my attention becuase he asked a question about the boundaries by which we conduct our relationship. The fact that he asked made it clear that when I was setting the rules, he didn't just listen, he HEARD what I said.
I haven't felt "heard" in a long, long, time - if ever.
It was nice.
This weekend, a friend observed that the women he dates are always crazy - especially the older he gets and the older his dates are. He just expects them to be on some kind of medication, in therapy or have weird hang-ups. He added that he just tries to find the ones with the least baggage, or the ones that aren't dangerous and that can sleep through the night.
Could this be true? Is it really that hard to find women who aren't crazy? I don't even now what "not crazy" looks like. haha!
Today, after lunch, I climbed into my car and stopped cold when I recognized the unmistakable scent of 25.
Wow. Where did that come from? How did it get there? Why today?
It's been weeks since I've heard from him and even longer since I've smelled him.
But, I know his scent and I always will.
I love my best friend.
We've been apart for 6 months - no communication - she's been avoiding me.
She didn't like how I was living my life. I didn't know that was the reason until yesterday.
But, last night we had cocktails - it was teary reunion that I've been hoping and praying for.
I don't really like girls - but I love her and I need her in my life.
We talked about our lives and how we aren't in college anymore. (And we relived some of the most fun things we brought to each others youth.) Topics like work, family and getting old came up over beers, martinis, wine and sliders.
She understands now why my life has taken the turns it has - she didn't before.
She acknowledged that she abandoned me when I needed her guidance - and I admitted that I didn't ask for her help.
The evening ended on a good note and we're back where we were.
And I feel nothing but relief and happiness about it.